One long day

So, I realized this morning, when I woke up to two screaming babies that I actual don't have any help with them. I am so used to having my husband around and helping do everything with them. Getting one of them up and changing him, while I am doing the same to the other. Then we usually go and feed them. Well, this morning, I had to grab one from his room while the other one is in his room crying waiting for someone to come and get him. So, instead of changing the baby first. I went and grabbed Ayden out of his crib in the other room and then changed both of them one after the other. Getting both of the boys ready for church and then myself as well, while trying to run after the two of them is one of the hardest things that can be imagined. My husband usually watches them while I get ready as I do the same while he gets ready. Having to get both of them out of carseats and getting them into the church was a peace of cake though. Then while we are in church people keep coming up to us and says "I'm sorry that Joshua had to go, we are definitely going to miss him. We will keep him in our prayers and hope he returns home safely. If you need anything please let us know." Okay, well yeah we are definitely going to miss him, it's going to be one long year. After church we did the usual and went over to Joshua's parents house for lunch and to watch the game. While we were there Ayden, who is a massive daddy's boy was acting out like he has most of the day, couldn't even get him to take a nap without a fit, since his dad always holds him and rocks him when he goes to sleep. Then we went home and got changed since they were still in their church clothes and went to play outside before it starts getting too cold outside. Dinner was a hassel. It is hard to cook when Mason, who is a mommy's boy is crying under your feet wanting you to just pick him up and Ayden is screaming and kicking the cabnet doors in the kitchen. Hopefully this doesn't keep on happening, because I am going to go crazy. I think it was easier when Joshua left the last time, because it was just me and him. yes, I was in the beggining of my pregnancy and he was back before the twins were born, but still it was way easier. Now, I have a handful to deal with and I wonder what's going to happen tomorrow, when I have to go to work and I am used to having all this help. Let's home it starts getting easier here soon. I really miss my husband and wish he was home, he has only been gone for one day and things are all ready starting to look bad.

Sometimes it's hard.

Today we had to say goodbye to Joshua again. He is leaving over seas and I hate this part of the package. So, for the next year it is just my babies and I trying to keep our lives together. I wish he didn't have to go, but I guess he doesn't really have a choice in the matter. It's hard when he is gone, taking care of to one year old babies, who can be a handful at times. Working sixty hour weeks at the hospital and trying to take classes online after the kids are in bed. Still, after all of this; I still take good care of Mason and Ayden, playing with them and teaching them new things in the evenings and all weekend long. I just can't wait for my lovely husband to get back home, so he can help me out and so I can stop worrying and be able to see him and talk to him. I guess I am just going to have to take it one day at a time and see what happends.